alone on a bicycle for 2

I feel like I have the whole world in my hands and everything I have ever dreamed of but someone to love... I really would look down upon writing things like this but it has just been on my mind. the world of falling in love, as much as I dont want to say thing.. total bullshit.. I mean you go out and are open to experiencing a fun and enthusiastic time until some guy you havent seen in a long time suddenly appears and tells you how much he likes you and he wants to date you?.. ok so I think why the fuck not.. and before you know it a day goes by and your wondering and thinking about all this shit.. to soon? what should I say?.. and he turns out to be some guy trying to feed some bullshit.. not only have I felt so humiliated but why have I suddenly gotten caught up in feeling like being in love is such a great thing.. when Im not in love I want it and when I am in love I dont... always the dilema.. to feel nervous everyday and and wonder if things are right isnt fun.. It makes me feel so insecure and heartbroken because living in a world of wonder is not always fun.. do I jump to conclusions. I feel like if I started a blog about advice I need maybe it would be a change from when people always blog and give advice... there is so much to say and so little words to describe it in.. all Im saying is that I just want to be in love with someone and they come to me and tell me the first time they ever saw me they knew I was the one.. and is that going to ever happen... not likely.