I apoligize for the emo-ness of the last blog.. I girl has to speak her really feelings. Although I only have one follower I would say that I am excited someone reads my blog. I haven't really informed anyone about myself. I am an extremely complex being. I have only have ever broken one bone (tailbone) and I love to sing, not only in the shower but everywhere. I always put up a shield between myself and others but deep down inside I love to be around people. The 3 relationships I have been in ended badly, which has caused me to be scared of any relationship. But in all honesty, who isnt scared about relationships and making friends. I believe everyone is responsible for hurting someone at one point in their life but everyone also deserves a second chance. I also believe everyone is afraid of getting hurt by others and therefore they resort to different levels of trying to be accepted. Everyone from the sweet girl next-door to the toughest bad ass. People often dont look at things like this because some people frown down upon it or just think its stupid. Its so real. Thanks for reading.

Do It: Make someone Laugh!

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OK so today I ask my friend why the last post meant so much and what to say to that specific person and he said " drop him.. when a man tells you he wants to date you in the future it means that he wants to fuck a lot of girls and then he wants you." the most blunt but realistic advice I have gotten in a long time.. I mean every day there is some girl who is heart throbbing over a guy and in all odds if he isn't dealing with her it is because 1) he doesn't really want to be with you or 2) he isn't interested in trying very hard to be your girlfriend.. I hate to say it but everyone should know that love at this age shouldn't be a huge thing but every guy or girl (depends) thinks its commitment and being in love should happen now but it doesn't.. I was driving home tonight and wondering while I was passing by every tree if that was the tree I should hit.. maybe people would pay attention to me.. I ended up driving home safely.. what a shame..

alone on a bicycle for 2

I feel like I have the whole world in my hands and everything I have ever dreamed of but someone to love... I really would look down upon writing things like this but it has just been on my mind. the world of falling in love, as much as I dont want to say thing.. total bullshit.. I mean you go out and are open to experiencing a fun and enthusiastic time until some guy you havent seen in a long time suddenly appears and tells you how much he likes you and he wants to date you?.. ok so I think why the fuck not.. and before you know it a day goes by and your wondering and thinking about all this shit.. to soon? what should I say?.. and he turns out to be some guy trying to feed some bullshit.. not only have I felt so humiliated but why have I suddenly gotten caught up in feeling like being in love is such a great thing.. when Im not in love I want it and when I am in love I dont... always the dilema.. to feel nervous everyday and and wonder if things are right isnt fun.. It makes me feel so insecure and heartbroken because living in a world of wonder is not always fun.. do I jump to conclusions. I feel like if I started a blog about advice I need maybe it would be a change from when people always blog and give advice... there is so much to say and so little words to describe it in.. all Im saying is that I just want to be in love with someone and they come to me and tell me the first time they ever saw me they knew I was the one.. and is that going to ever happen... not likely.

first blog ever!

WELCOME..

I hope thats the readers who are interested already will continue.. I have started this blog for many reasons.. first of all I am just trying to get some information about life.. everyone is always talking about life and I would like to get in on some of that info.. second. living in this world makes me so crazy I dont know how to live..

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